December 25, 2012

superhero

heee salam alaik, such alonggg time x berblogging hihi
well, im quite busy with my college's schedule and etc. ceyh bajet busy -.- 
actually im not that busy, just ntaah, malas nak buat semua benda.
kalau boleh, nak cepat2 habis blaja, im really2 tired !
why ? me myself dont know why. it just that im reaally2 tired. 
since i have problem with my beloved celcom -.- urrghh, its make everything getting worse.
hmmm and again i malaaa nak kesah. 
malas nak kesah semua benda, it doesnt mean that i dont care, but just,
im tired. again. 
Zai, what happened ne ? this is just randomly what came into my mind,
i wrote it down, so just ignore me haha sebenarnya mana ada org kesah pun kan ? 
apa yang aku tau, skrng ne aku lagi sng senyap sorang2, pendam sorang2, simpan sorang2.
its better. bukannya apa, xnak menyusahkan sesape pun. serious. aku sbnrnya x paham dgn perangai sndr.
i should be happy and enjoyed my holiday yg x sbrpe nak lame ne kan, tp tahla.
aku rasa kalau aku jadi adik2, mst aku pikir kakak x sayang aku. sikit2 nak marah.
yes, tht's kakak is me. hmm, whats wrong with me again ? it only happened when i came back home.
rasa nak marah2, asyik moody, rasa menyampah.
seriously aku stress mcm ne. rasa nak nanges. yes. dah lama aku x buat kerja part time tu.
nanges.
for me right now, the most important in my life skrng is, my family.
abah umi adik2. well, im not someone who have a boyfriend. so ofcourse my love towards them are getting bigger and bigger. when i dont have nobody, they always beside me. its true that your family is everything.
but why zai ? why dont you treat them well ? just be a good sister Zai. i love them. 
huhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhu 
streeeeeeeeeeeeesssssssssssss sgt ! :( :( :( :( :( 
Ya Allah, Ya Latif, lembutkan lah hatiku.
elok kan percakapanku.
semoga aku sntiasa berada dalam rahmat-Mu. amen. 

September 16, 2012

something ...

fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuh ! pergggh, abes berhabuk blog ne. cian dye. haha,
fuuu fuuuuuu, see, banyak betul lah habuk. okay nevermind, ignore jelah ehh habuk2 tu, 
orait, since dah lama x berblogging kan, gian. haha, xdelah, sbnr ad mende nak share. 
okay bismillah. heee :)
ne kisah nabi musa if im not mistaken. satu hari tu, Allah suruh baginda pergi
antara dua batu, ada sungai kat depan tu. Allah just suruh baginda tengok and senyap je.
okay, tuba2 datang seorg pemuda menunggan kuda. dye minum air sambil basahkan 
muka dye, time dye basuh muka tu, dye letak satu uncang sblh dye, dalam tu ada dinar. cewaaah, haha
betul laaah ! okayokay, lepastu, dye terus blah, x amek uncang tu sbb dye lupa.
lepas je dye gy, datang sorang budak, main2 kat sungai tu, standard budak la kan,
main je keje. dye nmpk uncang tu, x fikir panjang, dye amek uncang tu bawak balik. haha. pandai kan dye ? 
lepas je budak tu balik, datang sorang tua yg buta ne. dye jalan2 kat situ sambil hirup udara.tga dye rilex2 tu,
datang balik pemuda yg tertinggl uncang tu. dye cari2 x jumpa. dye syak laki tua yg buta tu yg amek. then dye bunuh laki tua tu. see, x masuk akal kan ? dah sah2 la dye x nmpk, cane nak amek kan ? tapi disebabkan pemuda td samseng, x rasa besalah pun dye terus bunuh. nabi musa yg tga tengok mcm pelik + bangang. sbb bagunda tau ap yg jadi dr first. tapi Allah dah pesan dr awal, tengok je jgn buat pape. Then dah abes tu, baginda tny kat Allah, apa sbb jd cmtu. jawab Allah :
1) pemuda tu baru lepas merompak dekat rumah budak yang amek balik uncang tu.
2) si buta tu, sbnrnya dulu seorg samseng. pernah merompak dan bunuh. dan orang yg dye bunuh tu, mak ayah si pemuda yg bunuh dye. 

hmmm, nampak x dekat situ ? sebenarnya dalam hidup kte ne kan, apa yang kte buat, semua akan berbalik pada kita. the more you give, the more you get back. sama la kalau kita buat jahat. someday somehow, Allah akan balas balik apa yg kita buat kat org tu. buat baik pun sama, kita akan dapat balik apa yg kita buat tu. sbb tulah ada pepatah melayu, buat baik berpada-pada, buat jahat jangan sekali. denng ~ 
just xtau bila Allah akan balas semua tu. ingt, kalau kita buat jahat, mmg Allah akan balas. and x semestinya, kita yang kena balik. maybe mak ayah ke, adik beradik ke, anak buah ke, makcikpakcik kita ke kan ? 
who knows. sooo, sblm buat something, think carefully. 
okay, till then. 

pray for me ! :D 

ps: hmm, since something happened at kuis, i really2 hope that you guys will pray for my safety. it is not safe anymore even kuis is my place to study. Ya Allah, please take care of me. Only you can protect me. Ameen. 

June 15, 2012

my dream :')

hikhikhik,
aku kalau dah balik rumah, dapat laptop pulak,
mmg dah xde mende laen dah, 
confirm berblogging :DD 
but please, dont be jelly much okay ;) 
haha, okay today i wanna share something interesting ;)
keh3 not really lah kan for other, but for me,
this is just interesting, well,
we should find something that will make us happy right ? 
yeaah sure, we all deserved better :) 
naaah, i would like to dancing -,- 
what thee ? haha, nak pandai dance :( 
well, dah lama dah teringin nak dance tau, sukalah,
kalau dga lagu tu, badan auto bergerak skali,
hee, just thinking about taking a dancing class, maybe ? :D
tengok video super junior ke, kara ke, snsd ke,
rasa mcm waaaaaaah geram ! 
nak menari jugak ! 
haha okaay next ! :) 
Nak gy paris ! :DD
just thinking, kalau rasa mcm serabut2 ke,
nak je lari gy paris, heh, 
hukhuk gaya cakap macam paris tu sebelah kuis je kan ? 
macam lah ad byk duit kan -,- 
haha x kesahlaah kan, it just one of my dreams,
well, i wish this will come true one day, hopefully, ameen :D 
okay next, haha
rasa mcm nak pandai main instrument. haha
gedikksss nye saya -,- 
well, x kesah la apa2 pun kan, janji reti main,
xdelah nnt noob je kan,
piano or gitar maybe ? ;) naaah, fun kan kalau reti main?
boleh entertain diri sndr,
maklumlah, kata forever alone :P HAHA
never mind, ignore it.
for once in my life, i want to be someone's special,
in his life, and that person should be my future husband, iA,
well, for now, i dont trust any other guy, 
so i hope that one day, someone will open up my heart again,
well, time heals wound right ? ;) 
i do live well for right now,
ehh, lari tajuk ne -,- haha
x, sebenarnya nak cakap yg,
i would like to round the world with my future husband, iA,
hihi the most place that i really2 want to visit,
karambunai and jeju island of course ! :DD 
wuuuu, thats gonna be so so much fun tau !
lagi2 kalau gy ngn laki sndr hehe okeee gatal disitu yea T.T
haaa, lagi kan, nak terer english lah -,- isk3
aku mmg dr dlu jiwa ntah kemana kalau bab2 english ne,
mmg parah oi ! tapi smpi ble kan ? kata nak round the world,
kne lah reti speaking kan ? heee, bukan tu je,
teringin nak reti cakap korea jugak hik3
kalau dapat oppa sorang kan best, korea mari :DD
lee min ho ke, haih, seronoknya,
dalam mimpi pun susah nak dapat -,- 
ini pulak nak buat laki, puiih,
mmg x la kan, k sedih disitu isk3 :( 
waaaah, tinggi nya impian haha 
last for today, fuuuh,
i really2 hope that i can maintain my pointer for each sem,
well, its quite hard for each sem actually,
naek sem baru, the subject become harder,
Ya Allah, help me and guide me in everything i do,
no matter what, do guide me,
i dont want to lost or cross the line again,
my heart is so full of regret, hmm,
i hope all is well ;) haha
3 idiots ;) missed abbasinas,
missed everything at jeram. thats the fact.
people change, memories remain the same. 
till then, byeee ! 



ps: please take note the green one ;) 
kelingnya aku -,- 









June 14, 2012

Pssttt ;)

hey you, yes you :) 
naaah, im having a big problem now,
you are disturbing my concentration in class laah,
haha, angau overboard :P
pssstt, i like you mr. fairytale.
Thank you.  

May 23, 2012

Bismillah

hmm, sebenarnya perasaan ne mcm tah pape gle sejak 2 menjak ne,
hmm, dah kenapa yea ? sungguh x mengertilah,
pagi td, lepas subuh tidur balik kejap,
then tbe2 je mimpi jepp, xtau kenapa,
Ya Allah, tolong, sungguh aku x suka perasaan mcm ne,
aku benci dye aku benci dye aku benci dye,
sumpah sampi mati aku akan benci dye,
kenapa mst ingt kat org yg dah musnahkan semua ?
hmm, tak suka tak suka tak suka !
selalu sgt doa nak pergi jauh2,
kalau boleh x nak dah dengar ap2 psl dye,
xnak tau pape, 
and i hope sgt2 xkan pernah terserempak ngn dye,
Ya Allah, kalau boleh, nak hilang ingatan,
xnak ingt dah semua pasal dye,
xnak,
kesian kat diri sendiri,
x boleh ke kalau aku nak happy sikit,
dengan x ingt lngsg psl dye,
sedih Ya Allah, sedih sgt,
semua bende buat semua x kne,
kenapa ? 
mungkin sbb dosa2 lepas yg x settle lg,
but im trying to be a better person without him,
tp yg x pahamnye kenapa dye mcm sgt2 penting dlm hidup ne,
sedangkan dye ? Ya Allah, aku x kuat,
sgt x kuat nak hadapi semua ne sorang2,
nak lari jauh2, nak,
nak lupakan semua benda,
kalau lah senang dengan kalau lah tu,
hmm,
abah dapat tawaran mengajar kat bayan lepas, penang,
okay sangat seronok sbnrnye,
sbb ? sbb mmg tu doa aku hari2,
nak pergi somewhere else yg xde sape kenal,
yg xde kenangan kat situ,
then i can start a new life there, maybe,
semua sbb jepp ! semua !
berhenti kolej pun sbb dye,
sbb sgt2 frust, itulah main reason kenapa stop belajar dlu,
then lama sikit baru rasa nak belajar balik,
sbb kesian kt diri sndr, kesian kat umi abah,
xkan sbb laki x guna cmtu nk hancurkan hidup sndr kan ? 
no way, i will prove myself that i can live without you,
just see me shine okay,
okay back to abah's story,
hmm aku tau abah nak gy penang, tp
umi la pulak x nak,
dye kata bukan sng nak pndh,
jauh pulak tu,
aku cakap lah, bukan selalu umi,
serious rse nak nanges time ckp ngn umi td,
sbb aku nak kan mende tu, nak sgt,
umi cakap lg, nnt susah nk selesakan diri kat sana,
tapi boleh try kan umi ? hmm, 
umi, tolonglah,
kalau umi tau betapa strugglenye kakak nak bangkit balik,
im the one who lose hope in life,
im almost giving up, all the time all i do just cry,
cry and cry again,
the pain, sgt dalam,
somtimes i just cant handle it,
but im always pretending like im strong,
padahal, 
aku rasa setiap malam aku akan nanges,
xnak share ngn sape2, sbb rse x layak nk share ngn org laen,
xnak org laen tau yg sbnrnya, zai ne seorng yg lemah,
when it comes about him,
Ya Allah, aku nak rasa bahagia, mcm org laen,
jelly tgok semua org dah bahagia,
esah ngn haziq,
adek ngn man,
dady ngn imran,
im happy for them :DD 
but pity for myself, haha 
kesian kan, apsal tah malm ne taching je lebih -,-
haha takpelah,
haa, harap sgt2 yg umi akan agree nk pndh penang skali,
please umi, just for this time,
im begging you,
this is what i want,
Ya Allah, kau lembutkan hati umi.
till then, bye. 

May 21, 2012

Katibah

hey hey hey :DDD
haa, nampak x betapa lebarnya senyuman tu ;) 
hehe mmg x dinafikan, i cant stop smiling.
we're having so much fun at katibah.
haha, semua orang mmg tak berhenti bercakap time tu.
seronok sangat sampi x rasa yang sebenarnya dari first jumpa lah nak balik,
asyik bercakap je, haha
nak cakap cane yea, rasa bersyukur sangat sangat tu ada tau,
sebabnya,
semua dapat kumpul ramai2, jumpa balik,
bercerita macam2, share semua mende, masak sama2,
tidur sama2, solat jemaah sama2, mandi sama2 ;) 
haha, denagan mathuratnya lagi,
Ya Allah, sungguh rndu those moments, 
ingatkan tak ramai yg join, alih2 ramai :DD
mmg meriah tu takyah cakap la kan,
perempuan, biasa lah kan,
dah jumpa tu mcm2 la :) 
2 hari rasa mcm x cukup je,
kalau boleh nak semngu, lagi lama lg bagus, kot, haha
hmm, sape ye yg join, ikut kelas ehh, sng nak ingt hehe :P
umar ada : AMNAH, MUTMAINNAH, AYANG, HANNAH, HUSNA HALIM, RAHMADHINI
mas'ud pulak : FITH, HUSNA KA, QURRATU, AINAA, tu je kot,
abbas :D : ME, ISHA, AMEL, MUMY, DADY, NANY ! yeaay, semua ad except kak izzah and kak nora isk3 :( 
others : RAYYAN and MARYAM SAKINAH :) 
erk, kenapa mcm sikit yea ? haaa, sape2 yg terlupa tu maaf ye.
the sorohah time best :D haha, padahal semua moment best ble dengan mereka mereka :) 
tahap kegedikkan increase ! xtau kenapa HAHA 
tp ble lg nak berperangai mcm budak2 kan ? 
time ngn kawan2 la terlepas semua, takde dah nak cover matured2 bagai,
haha, tapikan,
semua orang dah makin besar, tak tipu !
semua dah matang, makin laawa, makin cantik2 belaka :)
tp tula, sifat keanak anak-kan tu still ad,
perangai dr lahir lah gamaknya, melekat x buleh buang :D 
aktiviti kteorg x byk sgt pun tp still terisi, byk moral value :P
haha maen game pun ad pengajaran tau! jgn maen2 ngn kteorg, haha
malam ad sorohah, maen masak2, bersihkan ayam ngn hannah, 
moviee maratthon. real steel, roommate, om shanti om :D 
haha, tp yg tgok major gang x solat lah, sbb esok x yah bangun awal solat subuh hihi
then lepas subuh tu x tidur balek dah :O omg, sila percaya ! haha,
semua org start bercakap balek, semua da aktif balek, masuk air weyy !
haha gossipp tu x yah cakap la kan, mmg seronok ahh, keh3
time kat waterfall pun best, makan nasi lemak, mandi manda, i menyesal x bawak baju isk3
waaaaaaaa :( haha tp okeee je, 
then bakar ayam ramai, yg paling bestnye kan, semua org addicted ngn kamera hannah :DD 
pantang kamera ru on, semua buat gaya posing abes2 lah, haha,
thanks to hannah sbb tlg amek kan gmbr !
haaa, pg ahad tu, esah tolong buatkan tangle untk i hihi
i love that moment :) 
then time balik tu, i mumy adek n nany naek keta yg dady drive.
even ad 2 3 konflik time balik, tp alhamdulillah everything just fine,
kteorg singgah rumah maryam, Ya Allah, mmg kalu la mak dye,
mcm2 mak dye buat tau,
buat air teh ngn honey, air rebina la, dgn order domino nye lg,
hehe makan sakan la semua org kan, kata lapar,
makan lepas solat asar kt umah maryam,
thank you makcik :DD thanks maryam sekali ;)
haaa, part ne best jugak, kteorg ber-karok2 dlm kete dady,
nasyid weyy :DD solehah gle kaaan hihi :)
mmg terbaik, dah lama x karok ramai2 ala2 jamming gitu ;)
byk jugak nansyid kteorg, semua bring back memories time sek men dlu,
kalau ad semua laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaagi seronok :)
okay still byk cakap kan even smlm x berhenti cakap -,- 
haha, naah, its okay, im tired already,
so nak ksk gmba kteorg, tgok la,
and i guess, banin xde kan yg tau pasal blog ne ? :D 
so i will feel free to post all cekci2 gamba hehe, 
takpe kot kaaan ? HAHA,
so hereee all the pics :D












 our heart's symbol :D


















naaaa, can you guys see the happiest face on everybody's face ? :DD maaf ayat macam mintak kaki -,- 
english saya spm x bagus isk3 :(
haha, btw, kalau nak letak semua pic mmg xla kan, byk weeyy :O 
jenuh la cek lagu tu, penat, haha




Ps Ps Ps : i do heart them <3 
sayang korang semua sangat sangat :) 










































May 01, 2012

lovely day :DD

this is us, me syidah and aliyyah. 



nice shoot wan ;) 


my alien, mia :D 


umi and abah :) 


oraait, today is umi's birthday guys ;) hehe, may ALLAH bless you umi. 
may happiness surround you, always in a good condition, 
nothing else that i want from you, i just need you in my life, 
may your blessing is always with me, and i hope that ALLAH will bless me to, as He wish, ameen.
umi, i know that im not a good daughter, yet, im trying to be a good one for you.
im on my way to upgrading myself. just for you umi, 
as you wish, i want to be a great daughter for you, insyaA. 
dont stop loving me like jepp do umi, im begging you :( 
lastly, I LOVE YOU SO MUCH !
i just dont have the gun to tell you that i love you. thats all. 

April 27, 2012

ALLAH itu maha adil :)

hehe, assalamualaikum, cewaaah, mentang2 tajuk mcm solehah kan, tbe2 je bg salam, keh3
haha, takdelaaah, sebenarnya just nak share satu cte, for me the story just nice, byk moral value,
okay bismillah, cmne cte dye, pasal sabda our beloved prophet, Rasullulah, maksudnye je, hehe
satu hari dtg sorang sahabat jumpa nabi, dye sdey dan berkata,
"ya Rasulullah, aku sangat sdey, aku baru saja kehilangan sorang lagi anak yg bru lahir, dah 3 kali ya rasul"
 nabi bersabda,
"bergembiralah, kerana anakmu itu sdg menunggumu di dpn pintu syurga"
seronok la kan lelaki td, then dtg sorng lagi laki, ckp cne kalau ank dye dah 2 org meninggal,
nabi cakap,
dye juga sdg menunggumu,
sama jugak kalau sespe hilang sorang anak time lahir, baby tu tngu ibu abah dye kat dpn pintu syurga.
tbe2 aisyah tanya kat rasulullah,
cne pulak kalau org tu takde anak sbb dye janda atau duda ? or tak kawen ? 
nak tau nabi cakap ap ? haaa, part ne plg best, rse cm nak nanges je time dga ne tau, hehe
rasul caakap, kalau cmtu, aku yang akan menunggu mereka di hadapan pintu syurga, bukankah itu lebih baek ?
haaaa, spe yg rse nak nanges angkat tangan ! ya allah, sampi cmtu kan sayang rasul kat umat dye,
jadi sepatutnya, kite kne rse thankful sgtsgt tau, :D 
okay, byk sgt simpang ne tak straight :| haha,
just nak cakap, dalam hidup aku ne, semuanya adil, itu ap yg aku dah realized lah kan, 
 duludulu time jepp suka aku, aku tak suka dye, so skrng aku mcm terglegle kat dye, dyee dah ad org laen.
time ad jepp, aku ignore cah, ble ad masalah je nk cr cah, skrng jd mcm tu jugak. Naah, ne ap yg aku dah sedar yea, no hard feeling no heart feeling yea, im sorry :) 
kalau aku lah kan, skrng ne rse mcm mcm gle tau tak, heh, tapi takpe, i've decide, this blog is just utk story story yg aku rse nak share je, hehe, i got other place to spill everything that i feel, so i can pretend that im a tough ;) HAHA, tapi aku mmg tough pun yea, haha, 


ps: please do pray for me yea korang. 
 and me, please dont be sad, ALLAH is always with me. just remember that zai :') 


April 20, 2012

just come back :D

salam alaik, hyep everyone  :D
yea saya disini sangatsangat lah bahagia disamping keluarga terchenta,
hehe, and the most important is, with my friends besides me, 
i do heart them so mucchiess <3 
orait bismillah, nk cerita pasal experience kat kampung hehe
hee, kalau nak difikirkan balek kan,
banyak faedah ble aku dok kampung almost for 2 month, kot,
haha, tak ingat dah berapa lama dok kat kg,
tapi yang pasti, dok kg mmg best, even takde pape kan,
but at least, kat kg, boleh tolong tok MASAK.
okay amek kau caps lock terus, why ?
haha, yelaaa, malu tau ngn tok ble blek kg,
tok suruh siang ikan reti tapi silap,
yelah, as a girl, kne lah pndi buat semua tu kan ?
then, baru tau, sebenarnya, aku still noob pasal masak,
even yang asas, yes tau, tapi sbb tak selalu masak, tak selalu tolong umi kan,
tu yang dye jd mcm tahpape,
seriously, sangat malu. tapi takpe, i will keep learning everything, iA :) 
well, ble dok kat kg, of course la jadi org kg kan, haha
24/7 pakai kain batik, and i enjoyed wearing kain batik :) hehe,
nampak sopan tau ble pakai kain batik, haha
mmg lah mula2 rasa nak telucut je kan kain tu, but lame2 tu, just fine,
haha, ble malam pulak, selalu tdo awal, haha
sbb pagi esok kne bangun awal, tapi selalu lepas subuh tdo balek, hehe
teruk kan ? ish ish, jgn tiru yea adek adek,
haha, selalu bangun pukul 8:30, mst akan terbangun, sbb iman n daniel buat bising -.- 
nnt masuk bilik, kakak ! wat ap ? sambil sengihsengih, haha, bengong betul,
tapi bangun jugak la kan, kalau nak kne ngn tok silakan lah sambung tdo,
lepas tu terus mandi, then breakfast sambil tengok rebound to love hehe
tak boleh miss oh cte tu keh3, haha, pastu sapu kat ruang tamu tu even takde sampah,
hari hari tau aku kne sapu, mmg pesyen tok cmtu, mst kne sapu, haha
pastu buat lah pape, sidai kain ke, sukahati lah,
tapi paling best, masak lah, nnt mula lah aku tny mcm2,
yelah, org xtau pape kan, kne lah start blaja, kne jd budak baru belajar lah,
hehe, iA dah reti masak sikit2 :)
naaaah, paling best ble dah hari kames, sbb esok jumaat pakcik cuti :)
nnt makteh pun balek ngn ainaa and aiman, seonoklah,
 sbb ad chance nk gy jenjalan hehe
tapikan, keluar ngn pakcik boring skit, xtau nak shopping ap,
ngn makteh best ! hehe, nnt dye yg bayarkan and aku tau je nak beli ap hikhikhik 
haha, banyak mende nak cte, tapi tbe2 rase penat, nnt ble ble sambung balek laah,



ps: im trying struggling myself to not remember anything. 



February 28, 2012

hihi :')


i made this by myself with yati besides me,
and she's annoying :P HAHA 
but i heart her <3 


eheeem, and those words, came from yati :D 
naaah, i told you right, she's sooo annoying ;) 
hikhikhik. 




ps: bak kata yati, goodnite and sleep tight everyone, 
ahh, i miss kak ida already :| HAHA 
alin hilang tah gy mana -,-